can you feel my blues?
I’ve had a lovely night. Lovely with a touch of misery. “I’m so lonely it hurts, it hurts, it hurts” goes the lyrics to an improvised song I recorded a couple of months ago. and it suits just the way I feel right now. My entire family is gone for the weekend, I’m all alone in a big house and I guess my freakin’ pms makes it all worse. I kinda wish I could push down all my dark emotions to a dark distant corner of my body and forever forget about ‘em, but somehow they always find some way up to grasp for air now and then. scratch a little on the surface and they burst out like a volcano. I could definitely do without all the suffering, the crying, the anxiety attacks, the feelings of disappointment in myself and of never being enough. of being too introvert. I just would like to be a little less alone in all of this. I’d like to surprise myself for once and be more open and take some chances, to not miss out on any opportunities. anyone get what I’m talking’ bout?
